I´m sure things never really begin and never really end, they just become expressive in some periods of our life, and unexpressive in others. That´s why detachment happens naturally when I have to transition from one stage to another. I know nothing is really lost, as I know I´m not conquering anything I don´t have within me already.
For nearly two years I´ve been centered in creating content very intensely for my thematic workshops. Short workshops that I´ve been offering in Madrid, Alicante, Ibiza, Barcelona and London, in the languages of reflection, science, vinyasa, yin yoga, restorative yoga and mindful living.
They have required a lot of insight and depth from my side, and have manifested as lightness and joyful education for students. I would say it has been a success in my inner worlds. Pleasure, satisfaction and gratitude remain with me. I´ve used my freedom and personal interests to talk about inspiration, motivation, vitality, mental clarity, transparency, awakened life, courage, enthusiasm, stress, honesty, etc... And I´ve been lucky enough to have people willing to listen to me!
I´ve also seen grow my Mindful Vinyasa mini-training, and I´ve seen myself emerge naturally as teacher of teachers, all of us being students.
Now it´s time to turn the wheel further and put my creative mind to rest so I can move deeply into the next stage of what wants to be expressed. It´s time to simplify and redirect my energy towards less outgoing energies, grounding my wisdom and acknowledging my ignorance. My soil needs some rest and some time to reach out for renewed nutrients.
Yoga considers ignorance (avidya) to be one of the most dangerous states we can dwell in and I would not like to ignore what I need to improve in my own praxis and professional responsibility. It´s time for me to get out there empty of knowledge and full of innocence. I´m ready for an upgrading even if that requires me to downgrade temporarily some pleasures, identities and activities.
I believe I´m a born teacher, but also a born student. That´s why this coming year will be devoted to receiving training rather than offering it.
Many things have happened while I´ve been creating this beautiful content for my workshops. I´ve seen my children moving from baby and toddler into lion and princess; family life has been the greatest inspiration source for me, along with my privileged relationship with nature in my ibicencan lifestyle.
I´ve naturally built a very stable private practice in Ibiza in which I receive regularly resident students, local and international, for their one-to-one enquiry, practice and study time. All of them are committed long-term and faithful to their practice. I believe this is a miracle, and these routines have changed their lives and mine.
Great collaborations have flourished too in these years with other schools and companies, representing my ideal business relationships: freedom, respect, correct value and commitment.
I started my Youtube Channel, out of innocence, just to stay in touch with people that were not close to me, and I never expected this warm welcome among practitioners and teachers. I didn´t even know what a subscriber was nor did I perceive it as a marketing strategy of any kind. The truth is that it has served my highest goals as a teacher: connection and service.
Resilience and humility have been my main personal goals, and the fruits have been showing up in miraculous ways, with evidence and sweetness. Though I´ve had to deal with the rough experience of being long-term injured for the first time ever, I believe it has been supporting my goals.
So, what´s next? I´m not really sure but it has an aroma. I´ve clearly placed a big part of my time, family and material resources for 2018 to the service of taking advanced training for myself with my admired teacher Jason Crandell in London.
My teaching energy will be devoted to collaborations, retreats and summer yoga, and my private practice which goes all year round. This means: study time, external ideas, external requests, external availability, but temporarily no educative proaction, no workshops scheduling, no content creation for myself…
My intuition tells me that 2019 will be giving shape to a body of theory and practice that I can deliver as training to other teachers, which has been a long term request I´ve been receiving.
Anyway, I´m not sure about the future… And it feels really good not to know!
To celebrate all this and more I wrote this post, and I want to leave here a few quotes that I´ve been reading to myself or students along these years and that really represent my journey, my believes and my service. It´s my way of saying goodbye to this stage, and expressing my gratitude for those of you around me and inside me. All of you are sitting in my heart.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
If I have no appetite—it is because I am already full. If I have no desire to go anywhere—it is because I have already arrived.
Can you accept the notion that once you change your internal state, you don’t need the external world to provide you with a reason to feel joy, gratitude, appreciation, or any other elevated emotion?
The world doesn't really need more people who can bend their bodies into amazing positions. What it needs are kinder, more compassionate, generous people.
Rid your body of its impurities, let your speech be true and sweet, feel friendship for the world, and with humility seek wealth and knowledge.
Enthusiasm is one of the most powerful engines of success. When you do a thing, do it with all your might. Put your whole soul into it. Stamp it with your own personality. Be active, be energetic, be enthusiastic and faithful, and you will accomplish your object. Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Ancient spiritual traditions remind us that in each moment of the day, we make the choices that either affirm or deny our lives. Every second we choose to nourish ourselves in a way that supports or depletes our lives; to breathe deep and life-affirming breaths or shallow, life-denying ones; and to think and speak about other people in a manner that is honoring or dishonoring.
And my favorite!
I have no special talent. I am only passionately curious.